I am deeply heartbroken when I got the news about the cancellation of the Eras Tour in Vienna.

To my knowledge, Taylor was already in Vienna, having dinner. Merch already started selling and Swifties were already gathering out and about town.

At the time the announcement came out, I was in Flemings Hotel in Vienna on my bed, after a full day of travelling from Hallstatt. I was already in Austria since the weekend and had already spent close to ten grand. That's not including my custom-made outfit, inspired by Taylor's purple cupcake dress from the Speak Now era on the tour.

When the announcement came out, I saw it before Taylor Nation even posted on their IG Story. Before the oeticket was updated. Naturally, I didn't believe it. Didn't want to.

But after understanding the danger of the situation, my sister and I decided that even if it's fake news, we would most likely not be attending because tragedies do happen, and we cannot take such risks.

But all these did not make us feel any less heartbroken.

I was fortunate to attend the Eras Tour in Japan, but my sister wasn’t able to due to her demanding work schedule as a doctor at a public hospital in Malaysia. She had rearranged her entire work schedule to attend the Vienna show, and we had hoped to make this a special experience together. I managed to secure tickets for the show in London on August 17th, but again, my sister cannot join me because of her work commitments. On top of that, flights were about RM13,000 each, which adds to the difficulty.

We also tried securing tickets in Australia and Singapore, but the intense competition and high prices from scalpers made it impossible. We had pinned our hopes on the Vienna show, thinking it was finally our chance to experience the magic together.

I’m not asking for anything—I just wanted to share our story with all of you. We’ve done everything we could to attend the Eras Tour, and it breaks my heart that my sister missed out on this experience. I’m deeply grateful for all that Taylor Swift and her team has done for Swifties, including myself. I just wish there was something I could do to make it up to my sister.

However, I do have to say that Vienna city handled the cancellation in a very lovely way. With Swifties gathering all over the city, mainly in the shopping district, giving everyone a sense of camaraderie. We got free Swarovski crystal necklace, free entry to museums, free burgers etc. We exchanged bracelets with fellow Swifties on the streets, in train stations and made new friends on tour groups. 

Although we were heartbroken over the cancellation, I had a wonderful holiday with my mum and sister. Suddenly, we were teenagers again. We'll always be Mama's baby girls.